This book is making me feel like shit about myself.
Shes 87 pounds, thinks shes fat. Hoooow? Im like twice her weight. FUUU
What book are you reading?
You don't realize how much you care about someone until they don't care about you.
I'll be damned if I miss you at all.
12.14.09
Woke up. Got ready. Went to school. Went to Miranda’s until like 3:30. Came home. Chilled. Got Jreck’s for dinner. Ate. Watched TV. Chilled. Got in the shower. Shaved my legs for the first time in ever. Haha. Now I’ve been on here listening to The Doppler Effect. I’m going to bed now. Tomorrow, my full license kicks in :D. It’s almost my mommy’s birthday. I get to make her cake. WOOP.
I regret to inform that you've missed out on my better side.
I’ve always loved this song. Haha<3
And then he told us,
“It’ll all blow over soon.
Everyone makes mistakes right?
I’m bound to make a few myself.
If I don’t show control,
You need to show some control.”
When in doubt, I'll be there by your side.
And just like in a photograph, someday we'll look back. Someday we'll look back.
I have counseling tomorrow. Crap. I don’t want to go.
I definitely do NOT want to be after school tomorrow where all my friends are happily laughing right around the fucking corner and no one bothers to say hi, and Alex Green won’t talk to me because he “can’t do that to Erik. Erik’s my friend.” Great. Fucking Erik owns me now I guess.So everyone flocks to Erik, and I’m the fucking bad guy and so all of my very few to begin with friends go to Erik, except Cait and she doesn’t stay after so I’ve sat in a corner and started crying before my dad got there more than once. And I want to fucking kill him. Because I let him in my life and he took away everything that mattered to me and kept me somewhat stable and now I have no one, because I’m stupid and do things that will eventually ruin my fucking life and I will either be dead by 20 or living in a mental institute because I fucking need to leave Auburn because it is a shit hole and I hate everyone, except about three people. I fucking hate you all. It’s not like you really care if I died.
The end.
If you read that. Cool.
Maybe you can understand why I fucking hate my life.
kbye. I hope no one read this.
Hi, I still love you like crazy. If you even need anything, or anyone to talk to, know I’m always here. Even at 3 am. I’m here.I miss how wicked close we used to be. :[ I need to hang out with you soon.
Oh, and in my opinion, Darby > Erik.
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